Designs and their pay-backs

"tomorrow Miss Raeidah wanna see us... it's something about the ticket"

This is what i recieved from shahril last night.. and my reply was?

"Fuck, what's more after the end of Drame Fest?"

Shahril didn't know... and that actually is how our Humorous Mr Kevin that... may be wanna surprise us kot... but what really happen was...  

After few moments

"She wanna give us Money!"

OMGWTF?!

I've never think of that before... i just wanna help. since teacher asked... and i'm too is interested in designs... shahril and me.. we can consider us volunteers... not really hoping to get anything back... Innocent arent we? eleh.. lol... but right now... i'm half a free lancer! i've got money for designs... WOOOTS!

it's not much but still i'm a $_$ so it's ok... a lil will do... and to me it's quite many... RM50.. but counting the time i sacrificed... hehe i deserve that know? lol...

May be after this time... i should brave myself up... and find some design work to do... side working as a free lancer... and ask for little money... may be i wont be having Financial problems by then... haha...

hmm i shall now read back the design forums hehehehe.... anyone interested?

Speaking of Designs...

Sorry yuen i reallly cant do it for you yesterday.. because there has been too many design work to do these few days...

and everyone's enthusiastic about tha party... even nathiya yesterday told me that i need to design a T-shirt.... for PT03 and 04.... then ideas is we wear that T-Shirt that night! wow.. big burden sia.. so i need ideas soon... will have a small meeting with PT04 and 3 fellas soon... stay tuned ya? of course we hope the tishirt will be free.. and of course i will not ask any money from this design la... it's for the GROUP man... but i doubt everyone will buy =( some people just no "group" spirit one...

went for Football match last night... 1-0 ManU won... Malepepe John lol! and that's why i didn't go to class at all today... but i woke up rush to raeidah's office.. $_$ money... then the news was?

"there is bad news and good news..."

"and what is it?"

"bad news is you're not getting the money YET"

"ohh then good news?"

"you're getting money!"

"Rm100 for both or each?"

"nah both"

Disappointed.. haha nvm la.. still is MONEY baby.. MONEYYYYY

then pcd today got msg me la... ask me go take spooon.. WTF spoon?!! lol.. he sick wor... as if la... then must go block A mail box to get the spoon... then met nathiya there... talked to her and asked for the name list... she's effective! efficient! and what more name it la.. lol... 

that was before i visit Raeidah la... then i came back ask gf donw lo.. then see a car pass by.... Honda Jazz.. pcd inside... lmao... gf say.. eh ask him come claim the spoon now la... lol.. then i msg him lo... he come lo... say la... sick ah? as if la.. summore sing 

"tell me whyyyyyy, you're so hard to forget..." yes David Archuleta's A lil too not over you.. -.- so loud ok? the whole car park dengar tau... summore this time you sing till zhao sia(off tuned) la... lol... summore jio me go football again.... bro... cannot lo... i beh dong lo... lol

 

Oh is the weather cooler today? haha... i hope it's a change after that many suffering "years"... hot days past as long as years... =(

Name Lists Updated on my party post! please view if you are checked "unconfirmed" thanks..

ok T-shirt T shirt... what design should i put in to? any people out there are experienced on designing one? and i am a perfectionist in design... i used to be... and still am.. haha

MORE IDEAS NEEDED! notice that i put a button up there below my header? quick access to the party post with comments... kindly click and put in ideas.... haha. you can speak to me personally too! 

My WLM (Msn)

heartroxas@gmail.com

014-9309232

016-3022859

Let me Quote another lyric here...

In Between by Linkin Park... 

I'm not emo.. just the song is dam nice ok? please listen...

"In Between"

Let me apologize to begin with
Let me apologize for what I'm about to say

But trying to be genuine was harder than it seemed
And somehow I got caught up in between

Let me apologize to begin with
Let me apologize for what I'm about to say

But trying to be someone else was harder than it seemed
And somehow I got caught up in between

[Chorus]
Between my pride and my promise
Between my lies and how the truth gets in the way

And things I want to say to you get lost before they come
The only thing that's worse than one is none
[End Chorus]

Let me apologize to begin with
Let me apologize for what I'm about to say

But trying to regain your trust was harder than it seemed
And somehow I got caught up in between

[Chorus]
Between my pride and my promise
Between my lies and how the truth gets in the way

The things I want to say to you get lost before they come
The only thing that's worse than one is none
The only thing that's worse than one is none
[End Chorus]

And I cannot explain to you
And anything I say or do or plan

Fear is not afraid of you
But guilt's a language you can understand

I cannot explain to you
And anything I say or do
I hope the actions speak the words they can

[Chorus]
For my pride and my promise
For my lies and how the truth gets in the way

The things I want to say to you get lost before they come
The only thing that's worse than one is

Pride and my promise
Between my lies and how the truth gets in the way

The things I want to say to you get lost before they come
The only thing that's worse than one is none
The only thing that's worse than one is none
The only thing that's worse than one is none
[End Chorus]

That's all for now... alot went back today... but i'm staying... haha...

This is HeartRoxas Signing Out

The Ups and Downs in Past Days

Coming back to Melacca after  a weekend makes me missed my home-cooked food and my bed, my bolster, my speedy Internet and my own world in my home... but i wont miss the cold family i have... never will i ever miss them... they asked me to send a message when i reach... sigh~

Packed, bathed and dressed up readily to go anytime... i'm going back to Melacca... 2.30pm Bus.. i'm going back alone... gf have to bring alot stuffs here to melacca so have to let her father fetch... before departing i received Khesvin's phone call... he got problem with his computer again and ask for back-up help... oh no problem! sure help.... but i wont be back early... that's what i told him...

Reached terminal 2 and guess who i met... stephanie and her sister kristy... they also will be on-board the 2.30pm bus... and not only us.. many MMU-ians are there waiting for the bus... 

This time, the journey was alot longer than usual.. the bus delayed at first.. few mins but still delayed... my first time sitting a delayed Transnasional... ok never mind... what's worse is.. the bus need to pause at Alor Gajah first... then from there to central... the driver knows no shortcut... so it took about half an hour before i can see the TESCO in distance... fuck! i hate when i reach melacca late... luckily, Bus Tuah moved just after i found a seat... so no delay on town buses... GOOD! and the journey was quick... guess now the luck's coming to my side..

back in Ixora has never been better... i missed my PC and the first thing i came back was to turn it on... then called my girl friend... finish everything... i went down to khesvin's... and ended up i didn't send  message to my parents... 

Since last time he already had his lap top's hdd changed... so the warranty void too has broken... so now i can help him back up with my old ext hdd casing... thank god he was able to back up... then we went down to U-center... what we buy.. the Lipton Promotion.. RM4 for 2X1.5 litres of ice tea... was cool.. even now i have one left... cant drink it that fast.. diabetes sial.. lol

Actually after this weekend, i was thinking to start my studies... turns out i design more than study... and yea.. since Monday... i've been following a design called porthole.. making one my own so that i can edit what's inside the porthole... as many of you guys can see... i have my desktop setup with samurize and photoshop... i'm happy with the outcome... only TODAY... because i've been trying to improve the porthole look... so that it looks really like it creates a hole in the wallpaper... 

today's final product... notice that it's better than my desktop i showed last time....

It's exactly like the CAD skin already... ok not EXACTLY but almost 95% alike... and i'm happy with it... so i guess i'll stop the design about porthole and start another if i want.....

Besides my own desktop.. i've got tasks too!

1) Yuen : wants me to help with his scout some event's logo... live your life with colours... and i failed doing it to my satisfactory... hmph!

2) Tommy : his gf's website banner... same thing.. i failed... Tuesday just aint my design day..  but not wednesday.. where i finalized my porthole... hehe

3) Nathiya : New task! T-Shirt for PT03 and 04.... and  they hope to wear it during the farewell party how does that sound? anyone got ideas please let me know... or else the T-shirt will leave  for me and shahril to finish them off and then show you guys.. k? i really cant promise good stuff as i'm really NEW to T-Shirt design...

speaking abuot the party, people are enthusiastic.. and i'm happy with the feedbacks... special thanks to Nathiya, Fouzan, Khesvin, Shahril and my beloved bii for contributing and supporting... and my blog commenters for ideas... and of course participants! everyone counts... and everyone motivates this plan to continue... no doubt it's gonna success... one way or another!

for Those who do not know about the party yet, you can read the post before me... or just click the PortHole at the top of my blog... thank you..

Weather these few days were definitely HOT... even now... 12.31am i still feel the HEAT... sigh~ how i wish i'm in a air-conditioned room. but that only leads to worse environment... =( selfish human, global warming causers.. we SUX! Linkin Park - What I've Done showed us how bad we are destroying the world... a must listen! Frustrated i am.. i really cannot tahan the heat... once reach home... take off shirt... bathing now has changed... i straight away stand under the shower and just turn the tap on... let it rinse me with a sudden... rather than the normal water-testing procedure... i dont care anymore.. because the water WILL be warm.. i know that... and no rain... MANY are sick... i'm abit worry about my gf and myself too.. i've always not been healthy... god bless me... really.... eveyone needs a cooler environment.. save the world.. T.T rain please.... and stay peace in the heart will give you a cooler mind... chinese proverb says so.. lol

Physics this week had all his class canceled... good news to us PT03 because we've got wednesday and thursday both 8am Physics... woots... and what's hot this week in campus will be the online evaluation about lecturers and facilities... of course.. good lecturers get good results... lazy lecturers get lower marks... but this semester.. lecturers still boleh tahan la... not all that bad... just some are EMO... some dont communicate with students well... some are just really good.. that's all.. but english lecturer gan jiong... lol.. wan us to go lab and evaluate... and the class ends early... actually i've already evaluate earlier on but 2 periods i think.. he migh just give us something to do so just go la.. lol..

This week too... barring list will be out... and we can view our provisional offer now! 

Data Comm Melacca Campus...

yeap.. that's me... so i must now study hard (easy to be said -.-) just to get the course i wanted...

To those that get their choices.. congrats... those that are goin to cyber... luck by your side.... dont forget to comedown melacca always... pay us visits.... :D

PHD today was cool.. at least the venue was.. i love the venue.. but it gets too cold sometimes.. lol... and lecturer wanted to discuss about our test result but then noticed that there are management students come inside before our class ended.. it's not the first time... they've got no common sense... they think they're GIRLS and they somehow gain the right to come in just because outside is hot.. fuck! brainless shit... so many times have i showed my tamper over them... this time... lecturer said... please GET OUT... ooooooooooop... i'm fucking happy.. and keep scold scold till all get out... everyone was laughing... of course.. my classmates la.... stupid management students... GTFO!!!!!! that's what i shouted... and yea it's get the FUCK off.... wakakakakakaka.... but

what our lecturer said was our results are bad so she will try to help us to get better results.. from assignments.. and class participation marks can only allocated to few of em... tham tham sure kena lo... famous what... but me i dont think so la.. altho i've always answer a few questions here and now.. but lecturer addresses me as LIM and nothing else... we've got lim YC lim YZ lim YK and me.. Lim YK too... wtf so many how you wanna give? hope she asks from me.. my id... i wan marks T.T cause i've got no confidence on my final paper.. god bless....

went to statistics and FongE sat same row with us.. PCD apa lagi... hyper la... that makes me recall that "Fong Shen(god) Pang" (封神榜) we drawn last time... cause both of them god god de... kekeke lol... and i also say FongE! you stay here... i wan head count. lol... basically it's tha party la... and i really happy she's coming along... because she SHOULD bring some nifluence over people in 04.. luck everyone!!

gf also hesitated to sit beside me then cannot la.. let them sit back own place... lol.. i've got my gang... and i'm too bising for her at the back of the class... next time la got chance de la k? 

and what is the main topic today in class? ManU VS Arsenal kick-off at 3am GMT+8 later... everyone's expecting me to go... should i? i dunno lol...

gf they all went shopping today.. no class.. ENVY... not the shopping la.. the no class la.. lol... and she came back with stomachache.. hmmmm worry........................ then went down for dinner that time met FongE... dress well to go for Movie...

X-Men Origin : Wolverine (wrong spelling kot.... dont care la...)

RICH SIA sit Taxi oh... then she say eh eh nono got three boss behind who's the boss? Steph and Kristy and one more girl.. then fongE mentioned that they might not be tickets... then when they said bye i just wish them... soooo innocently and so purely wanted to wish luck to have tickets... but the response from Steph is? 

EEEYERRR.. 

wtf? -.- i say wish you still eeeyer ah walao...

then my gf also say... may be she thinks that you are somehow cursing her... 

-.- girls... they think alike.... 

or because i wasnt the usual me? lol... the usual me should say... hoi! wish you no ticket.. wakakakakak... ok lo be back myself next time.. CURSE 24/7.... wakakakaka jkjk =x

after dinner went down to U-center lepak quite long... because i remembered i BOUGHT 2 packets of Maggi Mini there b4... but now no more le... wanted to prove to gf but no more.. SUAY AHHH lol.. at last bought ibumie Har Mie Goreng.... wooots... imma eat it later... when paying the casher promotes... wan KitKat? free GSC ticket.. till End of June... woi worth ok? buy la wait what i like to "have a break, have a Kit Kat"... hehe

now.... lastly... i only hope the plan will work... and we will come to a venue decided soon... we PT03 04 will have a meeting soon.. eh macam aku dalam "commitee" ni... lol.. ok la.. at least im the proud LoudSpeaker Designer... wooots... but my apology if the T-Shirt turns out bad.... good luck to me! 

Well i'm off... to cook Har Mie... haha...... deciding whether to go to the football match later.... ad listening  to Sum 41- Pieces again... 

I tried to be perfect,
But nothing was worth it,
I don’t believe it makes me real.
I thought it’d be easy,
But no one believes me,
I meant all the things I said.

If you believe it’s in my soul,
I’d say all the words that I know,
Just to see if it would show,
That I'm trying to let you know,
That I’m better off on my own.

This place is so empty,
My thoughts are so tempting,
I don’t know how it got so bad.
Sometimes it’s so crazy,
that nothing can save me,
But it’s the only thing that I have.

If you believe it's in my soul,
I’d say all the words that I know,
Just to see if it would show,
That I'm trying to let you know,
That I'm better off on my own.

On my own...

I tried to be perfect,
It just wasn't worth it,
Nothing could ever be so wrong.
It’s hard to believe me,
It never gets easy,
I guess I knew that all along.

If you believe it’s in my soul,
I’d say all the words that I know,
Just to see if it would show,
That I'm trying to let you know,
That I’m better off on my own.

nice emo lyrics... woots...

Ciaox!

This is HeartRoxas Signing Out...

Post-Foundation Party Anyone? Updated

Note: This is a feedback Blog.. i expect everyone give a response even if you're not participating or you are... hereby thank you for your feedback...

We've been thinking of having one party... if you wanna make it sound like FAREWELL party... it's ok... we can consider it like it's a farewell.. since quite a number of our friends are leaving and going to cyber... this is the why... and what...

As for when.. this is why i'm writing this blog... we need people... from PT 03 and also 04... this party should be cool... and large... at least we HOPE it will be.. sigh... may be i should BEG of people to come for the Party... come on... we've been together one whole year... why not a party.... back to topic... when will it be... give me a feedback... after exam how many are staying back... for the sake of the party or anything else will do.. as long as you can stay back for the party let me KNOW... those that cant too.. let me KNOW... we follow majority...

as for WHO.. let's see who organizing first... Khesvin is the one came up with the idea... and the idea spread throughout... PT04 we have Fouzan to help... PT03 we have shahril to help giving ideas.. 

Who shall we invite... 

FRIENDS!

everyone... EVERYONE from PT03 and 04... so those that can attend... let me know too... those that cant.. let me know too if possible..  else never mind... 

Please come... Chinese, Indians, Malays, IS's... EVERYONE... 

That then.. leaves Where and How...

we have problem thinking about a venue... how about some feedbacks and ideas from everyone? please let me know... as for How? it's simple... we enjoy... we've been along quite well... I HOPE... so let's spend time... say farewell to the cyberjaya-going mates... wish luck... and say buh bye to Foundation!

Transport too is a problem... we'll think it over... (to those who are concern may be you can let us in with some ideas too)

Feedback is the utmost important thing in this post... so PLEASE TALK... thank you...

I hope i wont HEAR reasons like we are unfamiliar with each other and stuffs like that... we might not have talked b4 in class or so... yea may be... then get your "gang" (i believe you have one) to come together... we are ONE class... and i know myself... i get along quite well with everyone in my class except for hypocrites... so you wont be lonely or alone... the Party is meant for us... mainly Pt03 and 04 classmates... but any outsiders are welcomed... but we prefer foundation fellas... or better still under IT groups... and everyone should expect to pay.. at least a little... for the food you are going to EAT...

If else Fails... the plan will be canceled... which we... will never tolerate... and never hope it'll happen...

Name List (updated)

PT03:

Khesvin

Aaron

Yong Chin

You Kang

Chun Den

Milton

Shau Hwa

Kelvin (KDL)

Shahril

Ororo

John

Tham

Malliga

PT04: (Nathiya's List)

Nathiya  -ok

Ice - ok

Tommy- ok

Navesh- ok

Sze jit - ok

Wei sin- ok

Bagudu( IS student )- ok

Andrew- ok

Fauzan- ok

Fongee- ok

Purple -ok

Aby- haven’t ask yet. But mayb ok also!!

Shirley- haven’t ask yet.. let fongee confirm with u back!

Miau- haven’t ask yet.. let fongee confirm with u back!

Lina- haven’t ask yet.. let fongee confirm with u back!

Wei teng - haven’t ask yet.. let fongee confirm with u back!

Choong han- asked  already but not confirm

Gene paul- haven’t ask yet. let fauzan confirm with u back.

Jun kang- haven’t ask yet. let fauzan confirm with u back.

Jagsham- asked already but not confirm

Jaya- haven’t ask yet. Let navesh confirm bek with u

Thinesh- - haven’t ask yet. Let navesh confirm bek with u

Cristine- haven’t ask yet. let fauzan confirm with u back.

* = Unconfirmed

Thanks Nathiya for the effort and list...

That's all for now... FEEDBACK!

This is HeartRoxas Signing Out...

My May Desktop Design "Project"

It's near May.. i need a new desktop look... while finding inspirations... i found my long gone CAD which i use to use it last time... installed it... and have the porthole skin (my favourite) installed... then i decided to follow the design... trying to make if not exact... shall i say at least half of the like of it? i'm not good... not YET.... so here it is....

My Concept Art

Design Inspiration : CAD skin

Design : PortHole

Arrangement : Old Concept (i ditched Bug Desk despite of the lines)

Software Used: Photoshop & Samurize

Final Product

White Series : First and Last are just plain coloured Wallpaper with the samurize on top... Second to fourth is how the design suits in front of Vista Wallpapers....  

Black Series : Khesvin said it's too bright and eyes'll pain if it's a desktop in the dark.. so i designed this series... it's basically turning the base grey to black... but it cost me alot time too... and i actually designed a new porthole instead of change the colour of the old one...

Everything is clickable... the apple... the icons... their positions are FIXED and it cant be turned... (dont imagine it so pro lol... my Darling and KK and FongE)

Apple : Double-Middle-Click leads to Desktop

Icons : Double-Left-Click leads to specific applications

That's all for now... 

Critisizes and Comments are what i want more than Compliments.... 

but if it's good let me know... lol... 

this is NOT showing off... so think twice b4 you wanna shoot... 

i'm still improving on my PortHole Design... making it look more real... 

If anyone's interested in making one... i'll not hesitate to teach.. but my points can be short and brief but meaningful.... for example... "PHOTOSHOP IS EVERYTHING ELSE THEN..." and yea photoshop is the basic of everything you see up there... 

P/S: i changed my weblogo... you can comment on it too!

Thanks for viewing...

This is HeartRoxas "De-Signing" Out...

Tagged by Darling and TSJ

my first blog game! anything unfamiliar... dont blame me... i newbie...

Why do you choose this photo?

Valentine's gift from ma gf... basically meaning it's MEANINGFUL... that's why... AND i got no photos really... until recently... and all i've been uploaded except this one... so.. here it is... aku punya photo limited sial... jgn blame aku ya... ty...

When was the last time you ate pizza?

Pizza Hut... about a month ago with my darling... specific date unavail... ask her may be she remember hehe...

The last song you've listened to?

Sum41 - Pieces

OLD SONG but still rocks....

I tried to be perfect 

but nothing was worth it... 

la la la la

What are you doing besides answering this tag?

Clicking the tab where the question is suppose to be... and copy it here just to answer this tag.... listening to Linkin Park... thinking of what to eat during dinner... *hungry-nya*

Besides your own name, what do you like people to call you?

You name it... i dont have nicks... and that makes me having TOO many nicks... so anything la as long as it suits me or ma characteristics... recently got called loudspeaker... kinda like that... but i still prefer my own name... thanks you...

Tag 6 person and the following questions shall relate to them... (i doubt they'll even reply the tag except tayshawn may be... T.T nvm it's just names)

1.) Tayshawn

2.) Yuen

3.) Zhuo Yi

4.) Carmen

5.) Liz

6.) Khesvin

Who is No.1?

My high school Classmate... who sat beside me... FUCKING PRO in bio, physics, english... one whom i respect and who respects me... good mate of mine.....

No.3 have a relationship with?

ah this question is what people always wanted to really read in details... BUT... believe me... it's complicated.... heck if i know she got bf... like she's gonna tell me... pui! (she's my cousin if many of you doubted why i talk like that to her... lmao... )

Say something about No. 5

er.... Liz... aka CSC... aka somethingla in MapleStory... met in maple... exchanged contacts... hyper... happy... religious person... christian... attached to her GOD... 

How about No. 4?

er... Carmen... aka Soh Kah Mun... My Kindergarten friend... because basically she's my neighbour in Seremban... her father and my mother are colleagues, both GREAT TEACHERS of ST. PAUL.... her father leh... my add maths tuition teacher... i'm thankful... she's FUCKING PRO.... in music... knows how many kind of instrument... ask her... most pro... piano and violin i suppose... paino master leh... grade 8s dont talk please... =x

Who's No. 2?

My coursemate... 

Say something bout 6...

My coursemate... A Gujerat (sry if wrong spelling)... 4chan-er... World's No.1 retard...  one of the record holder/breaker of the world longest LAN party cyberfusion 09... Sg. Pelek guy... funny.. easy to mix with...

those who not wished to be tagged to but kena... sry la ok? no need reply nvm.... kthxbye...

Emotional, Love, Relationship..........................DRAMA!

8am... physics sia... can i "dowan go"? 

seriously it's tiring already... two days turut turut 8am every wednesday and thursday... aku tak mau! but lucky i went... went together with pcd as usual.. and he said barring list coming out next week.. and does that mean confirming course for our Beta Level is also avail next week? Met shahril and cant help laughing... he said again... this is my typical-malay-just-wake-up face.. and no one can win it... lol and luckily we caught up with him.. else i'll mislead pcd to second floor where our class is suppose to be at third.. aiyo... sry la i blur... 

when i enter class... the slide entitled "Quiz 3" shown and i was like eh wanna call other faggots up to let them complete their quiz or not? but at last they say aiya call also they wont wake one la... lol.. and teacher did not give much time... i solve the first one.. but second one wait for KDL's to copy oni... lazy la... and dunno how to do... then teacher said pass up now i wanna discuss... why not give up lecturer... you always quiz then dismiss one why today teach till last minute oni let us go... in the end? i lie down on my converse on the table... wooo so suang... but the suang-ness didn't last long... ah... it's getting colder... the weather today is just crazy.. and i really mean CRAZY!!! It's like the first time Melacca is having such hot sun.. but MMU dunno got what sickness on the airconds all so dam fucking cold.. i felt cold for all my classes today.. from physics... to english then HD then statistics.. siao ah is my problem or what... but everyone was saying cold too so... wtf mmu.... cold too cold.. hot too hot... -.- quality? tarak... standard? tarak.... apa ada? $$ ada... 

Done with physics and we stayed outside the tutorial room for english... just leave our belongings inside... because it's just too cold.. and i'm not fucking going in until i see teacher in the distance... 

Short-story is what he told us last monday that we'll finish today... so here we go... teacher had a difficult time dividing the class into groups equally... because only seventeen of us turn up (early in the class, more turned up later) so then he started... 

Kevin: hmmm... (pointing at baps and FQ) you two are the inseparable couple... one group... 

Me: (laughing out loud) LOLOLOL! inseparable couple... nice one la....

Gang: (Laughters....)

Baps: (Laugh girlishly + shyly) 

Me: (shrugs disgustingly)

Kevin: (points at shah, yuen, pcd & me) these, too, are inseparable...

Me: We are gays!

Shah: (did not hear me) i'm the old group leader ah you guys are under my command..

Me: No.. we are the gays...

Shah: FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU

that's part of it... and the groups are slowly distributed after that... we kena the devil... so do lo... easy oni ma... got shahril... lol... but thats not the point... there are alot mistakes and laughters in the class.. i'm being hyper... as always but some are just mistakes people make as if they think it's inevitable... 

Baps: theme about champion bull fighter is about bla bla bla......................

Kevin: it's not about bull fight?! it's about what?

People: Politics!

Kevin: Yes! that proven you guys didn't went for drama fest night....who went?

Baps & some of his girl gangs: (raises hand)

Kevin: what did the narrator said the first word itself? Politics! it's a very dirty bla bla bla...

Me: wah, got go still can wrong one oh... (saying baps la)

Ororo: LOLOLOLOLOLOL (book covering head)

Kevin: ya he didn't pay attention i suppose..

Me: (murmured) sure la.. go pak toh oni ma..

baps is baps... lol one more thing i lagi happy.. let's continue... 

*during John's presentation*

Kevin: now you can speak this loud.. when drama cannot... i was back there wanted to shout at you SPEAK LOUDER I CANT HEAR YOU!

Me: Semi-Finals ah? (act noob actually) 

Kevin: ya... now speak so loud... but that's not the main reason... language is....

Me: (turn to khesvin) Biasa la tu.... ada baps kat dalam ni... 

John: (finishes the presentation)

Kevin: you left out one more character...

John: har?! Malligaaaaa...

Malliga: i dunno lol...

Kevin: you left out John the clown....

*laughters*

Seriously he's so retarded la.. macam budak-budak tu... but quite funny la and clownish is sometimes cool too yea? Laughter, the best medicine...

and we've got another person in class.. pronouncing "Enjoys" our translation "enjoice" lol... this is my first time hearing this word myself.. i tot the word is just used to bedek people... but now... i hear it... with my very own ears... wtffffffff are you enjoice??

Lunch was awesome... because it's D'Famous Chicken Rice... my friends... Yuen, Shau Hwa, and Milton decided to try the new stall... taiwanese style cooking... turns out.. all say not nice... expensive also... sigh... i wont eat that stall at all cost man... besides... it prepares beef too which is a restriction of my religion and believe.. i'd rather not touch it... 

came back and finish playing my bioshock.... then head for PHD at 2pm... 

IT'S

SO

DAMN
FUCKING
HOT!!!!

the sun shone till my head like wanna evaporate anytime... walao right?

but inside the venue again it was so damn cold! wtf la... once cold once hot... dah leh mati nii...

so.. phd... we entered Early Adulthood... and... LOVE & relationships... LOL... HUGE TOPIC MAN.....

everyone was hyper... and i've already planned to be hyper since before entering....

Then everyone's saying ah yuen la... especially me la... he's always good in hd... but this time.. pcd voiced... oi yuen... better jot down notes... it should be helpful...

i just smile along at first.. then... ngek ngek ngek....

teacher said... why those who are handsome usually dont get those who are pretty? and those who arent handsome might have higher chance to get girls? 

because they dare to express themselves out... and according to our beloved Masyita... girls tend to like boys that share things to her... that makes her think that the boy shared things to me... i must be a lil different from other girls in him... then kena la tipu... lol! then me and pcd planned... story saje ma! later ask nathiya sit behind la... ice should follow what.. and pcd sit with her la... then yurn beside... then pcd jump to the front.. become ice beside yuen.. then can let him tell stories... LOLOL.... (this is how his blog now is hot about story story thingy.... good luck wai yuen!) then teacher said last time got one student tried that method and the girl ran away instead... why? because he threw EVERYTHING about him since first met... wtf which girl is not scared of you treating like that? use common sense la... and really go use phd to chase girls... despo? or really no technique at all... TELL YOU WHAT... no need technique de la... the heart is all that matters... heart is the technique... savvy?  

when it comes to presentation it's a IS group... and their topic is the Media.. (and how it influences young minds) but people are debate over it... i may agree or disagree that it's a good or rather bad topic... but i did not...  i listened to everyone who tries to tell me that some incidents are MADE to be happened and are classified... but revealed at last... and some just trust so some did not.. it's all up to you.. the world's changed... no truths from big bosses countries... and once there is world war three... that's the end of our revolution... FOR SURE... 

however what's playing in my mind wasnt all those incidents... is about the topic and how people are attracted to debate it over.. lol.. may be choosing a rather confusing half good half bad topic wasnt that bad after all...

we went out after class.. and those usual stupid management students just came rushing down before we even went up... AGAIN... yes again means not the first time,.. and apa lagi.. the loudspeaker me just shouted a scold at them la...  you wanna view me as what you view.. but you are showing disrespect and barbaric acts towards such mature community... grow up.... and so i KICK the door hard just to open it instead of just push it open... and the girls got shocked.. and Shau Hwa was directly behind me and says to me after going out... you know i so paiseh or not i was following you know? i say heck cares.. i throw my face not you.. you diam...

we went up third floor to join class together with Pt04/5 and supposingly our plan is to WORK... but nathiyaaaaaa zzzzz useless la... ice did not follow her.. but follow abby instead... but what's funny is before class i wanted to call nathiya over but she was afraid... because may be i call like a gangster... lol... she brought my gf along... bodyguard she say... what?! dare use her?! =x joking la... it's nothing la nathiya aiyo... just wan tell you plan dey plan.. but then? useless la you... cannot even make it successful.. then apa lagi.. ah yuen.. no story to tell lo... have to tell in blog lo... dont cry ah yuen... and dont emo... =xuse your what what intimate, passionate but non-commitment skills and give it a go ok?! dont tarik balik ady.. GO SAJE... =x good luck on that lol....

oh not forgetting.. FongE... lol.. she sat beside pcd... then pcd high la... happy... got god look over... then that john blocking me la... i say siam! i wan see my gf... then john say sry bang... then i ask... pretty right?! i say till dam loud and dunno fongE heard or not... omg... lol.. then oni i turn and saw her i was like so ZOMFGBBQWTF!!! but who cares la... she also know how i express about my gf one... wooooooooooooooooop! =x

when cabut lagi funny... she wanted to say bye bye... then i just shout my loudspeaker voice over the corridor... BYE BYE!!!! she was giving the omg-i-dunno-this-guy look.. lol...

today went to MMU corner oni know my gf didn't eat during lunch... aiyo... cannot la bii... must eat ok? promise me... dowan also swallow some bread NO EMPTY STOMACH... i worry... 

now this is a different story... ok let's speak the names first this time... it's our faggot Andrew Raj!

what he told khes... 

adw: khes i got a challenge for you

Khes: what?

adw: no vulgars till the end of this sem... i'll treat you then..

this is stupid faggot bet... you cannot tahan ah... macam bapok tu... girls cannot tahan i understand la... you? wan join baps group also ah? lol give us a break... vulgar is normal and that's how we FUCKING greet people... and how do you expect we not to use vulgar words... we have to talk about you.. we have to use vulgar... or shall i say your name was aligned to a vulgar already? we live as a good community... we talk vulgar but we live with it.... face it.. and we find happiness as a gang.... and we are not isolated too... but you... the minorities... are the ones cannot cope inside a NORMAL community... that's your problem... that's how baps are isolated from us.... ah.... stupid.. just stupid... but becareful tho... and i hereby warn you dont mess with us... we'll be more than eager to hurt you without any hesitation... sorry here.. NO CURE... mind you... be gone from our community.... or we'll give you chaos...  you're like going cyber wan see khesvin in his best image? love him say la... gay fag....

ooooooooooop That's all for now..

oh FongE... my pleasure and hope you can perform well next time too... (reply for your comment)

This is HeartRoxas Signing Out...

Pro is Pro

Why you so pro?

I dunno lol...

This had beed common... among us PT03's

Last Friday, we were suppose to pass up our academic essay first draft... and as a MMU-an we tend to stick to the word "no last minute no work" biasa la... so we do oni on friday... thanks to pcd.. he found articles.. good ones.. so i have less work ady... and i promise to finish the whole essay for him as he's gonna go PC Fair to work... no problem... i love crapping... we name it crapping... not academic writing.. -.-

Pro is Pro, my gang... finish the essay in last minute... really.. all thick thick... at least 4 pages... and i'm the last to finish because i've got printing problem... dah la tension... ink tarak lagi! but i managed at last... we all pass up the essay at zhun zhun 5pm... teacher was home then... but im not alone.. many were waiting for me to pass up together... "thanks you" pro? finish within one day sial.. =x 

consist of Khesvin, Me, Yong Chin, Ororo... 

Next pro thing... finished essay first draft... time to relax... and i've decided to go for COS concert... support my girl friend.. who's playing keyboard on stage... and the songs turn out well.... the performance was superb... everyone "enjoice" alot... there are solo-ers instead of group band too.. and no doubt they can solo means they are the best of the instrument...

Er Hu Solo - First one wasnt that nice but that's the best among the seniors of COS but the second solo was their teacher... and it was full of emotional and it was really good... i'm touched by the rhythm... 2am is the title... the teacher really put in feelings into the er-hu performance and turns out real well... pro! sifu is sifu... lol...

Yang Qing Solo - My second best in my list solo-er... the performer is from singapore.. and performs really well too.. fast and accurate... that's how i "enjoice" chinese orchestra.. otherwise.. nah =x

Gu Zheng Solo - wasnt that extraordinary but still is good...

The whole band of 58 performers of other songs done real well... that's when my girl friend is in too.... and i have to say... a drummer... MaYi she's SOOO SHORT.. but play SOO WELL... lagi fast lagi furious lagi accurate... (Like Rob in Linkin Park when performing Bleed it Out in Road to Revolution concert live in Milton Keynes [and i really recommend you youtube this bleed it out road to revolution live])  fuyoh.. it was stunning.. and FongE, too performed a fast and accurate thingy... hitting hanging metal plates... real fast... good job.. all of you... proud of yourselves will you? 

FongE and Bii, waiting you two to blog about cos night... would you kindly?

However the opening ceromany, MC.. "phail" really phail... speeches... "phail"... sry to say that... else it'd be perfect...

Third Pro...

Susan Boyles... British got talent... people underestimated her... because she was 47 years old.... and it aws so touching... she sung so well... you should look at how people laughed at her when she announced that she was fourty seven! and how people cheer for her after her performance.... it's about voice... it's not about race, gender, age... as long as you've got a good voice... young minds now really should appreciate and also respect... and KNOW that old ones are talented too! one way or another...

action speaks louder than words? here are the videos.. metacafe and youtube...

http://www.metacafe.com/watch/2696263/susan_boyle_singer_britains_got_talent_2009/

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9lp0IWv8QZY

"enjoice"

Final Pro...

Rubik's again! My sifu ah.. now ah.. pro till ah... the rubik's fast till ah... i dunno how to describe ar... lol... 

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Now let's talk something different... Ah Yuen's blog was spammed! i did not tho... and he got his supporters... but one is just a cock talker... kena me strike back... seriously.. you wanna protect your friend... then i'd rather you keep to the line... know what you are doing.. and do it in a gentleman way... shouting all over for fuck? saying people coward but dont dare to reveal the name? i dont care if he's one of my gang fellas because i BELIEVE my gang members wont fight ah yuen over spams by others... and my gang should know what face problem is... and they wont scold people coward while he himself hide his name... yet dunno the story behind everything that causes the spams.. give me a break.. try scolding when you're in front of the mirror before you know how to scold others... 

oh there is good side of all these... yuen become notorious... lol...

P/S: Aaron! i was linkin park all Mp3! i'm really into it now that i'm back to olden LP addiction... kthxbye...

P/S: Khesvin! good job getting a 1Tb! reserve place for me... "thanks you"... 

That's all for now... a post after this soon.. about today's drama... a MUST READ! so stay tuned!

This is HeartRoxas signing out...

Lifeless

When was my last post... hmmm... been quite some time already hasn't it.... why?

ok i tell you why.. 

I really have the mood to write about things last weekend.. but HELL... Ixora (the apartment i'm currently renting) got a internet connection down... FOR MORE THAN 3 DAYS... you cant do ANYTHING... except MSN..weird? even some of my msn friends dont trust that i cant online because i'm ONLINE-D on WLM... wtf Ixora.. improve will you?

I went with my housemate Kai... complain... Saw Stephanie and Shirly there... Stephanie said she's moving to another unit.. see if it's avail... well that's the CORRECT timing but i've ady done mine damn early.. thanks to kai of course... he's efficient in business... then she told me complaints are useless... i said.. oni to girls... they're afraid of boys oh they are... and we sat down like that's OUR office and she's the one wanting to ask us something... and talk like a bossy way.. we wanna complain! wrote the form and they say oh it just been fixed why not you go up and try we'll confirm with you later... FUCK! restart modem ka? if it's so easy then put a statement that you'll restart every 24 hours la... useless management... PHAIL IS PHAIL!

we didn't went back straight after that... instead we wen to U-Center to buy games.. hoping there's what we want.. reach there.. as expected... not open... the photostat girl told kai 4pm! so there we go.. back... SIEN.... why?

for those who have my MSN should know... i've got like ±150Gb games... and more than 80Gb installed... but still sien why?

Last Remnant... i finished main quest... dont have the will to go for side quests yet...

Burnout paradise... play for fun

F.E.A.R. 2... i phobia ghost stuff so there... i dont continue the game...

neverwinter nights.. too boring... game aint smooth... very stupid... 

Gears of war keep crash and i cant survive the berserker.... stopped...

DMC4 finish playing

Dark Sector Finish playing

prince of persia? finished...

L4D finish...

Sims 2? see mood...

o2Mania? no way..

warhammer dawn of war 2? not my type of games...

assassin creed?  lost my profile when i reformat.. -.- dont feel like starting again

Online games? ask Ixora why cant i play... zzz

world of goo? i dont wanna use that much engineer-typical brains... -.-

may be you'll say it's me.. that's too picky...

but NO.. i was waiting for HAWX to be bought at the games shop there..

and some games from SiFu's housemate... well.. why not find him now? he's not around the whole weekend! i'll tell you why later...

then here i go... after dinner... FINALLY.. there he is... then there i go... Tom Clancy's HAWX... woop i cant wait.. i just go back and install..not forgetting i bought the games for my housemate and girlfriend too... their computer cant play real time games so they can play SNOOPY vs the red baron.. pac man world 3 and open season........

guess what.. HAWX was awesome... it's so hard.... and i'm not good in simulation games.. it's my first time well... but still i managed... i finished in two days... it's not that hard after all... just the control... lol... 

SiFu's back! time to get some games.. i went up... 16th floor... total of 8 games.. but two i already have.. so 6 to be precise... but one's NBA which i dont play then narrow down to 5... so what's the five...

Mirror's Edge - installed... turn out i'm not good at all... it's confusing... i prefer assassin creed and prince of persia when it comes to grap and jump around... First person jumping and grabbing is a bit... dizzy.

Bioshock - not installed yet...

Tomb Rider underworld - installed.. played a lil..

NFS-undercover - installed.. the same old NFS.. boring..

FallOut 3 - waiting to be installed when i got the mood... (and the health -.-)

that's the five of em...

i got the games already... my gf also installed her sims university... and happy because she can play... good job honey! :D

time to meet her downstairs.. my daily routine... for those who complain that i pak toh too much... go to hell.. it's me... and different couple can have different view to spend each other's time... whether together or not... RESPECT!

guess what... the lift... it's DARK! no lights AT ALL... IXORAAAA wtf la... i phobia one leh... im' fucking timid... dont laugh! (you la.. summore who) so yea i on my phone torch... weeee i can see a lil now.. phew... went down and met nathiya.. i showed my middle finger... why? normal la... it's nathiya.. and it's me... that's my Hi! to her... well my gf was watching and was like lol why did you do that! =x

today gf have to practise for the performance WHOLE day again... no doubt gonne miss her but it's ok... she needs the practise... Bread for lunch and dinner again haha... not because she's not around... you'll know why later.. i still got a problem.. no one's joining me to watch the concert... sigh.. RM10(as far as i'm concern).. anyone wanna join me? so that i wont be alone yet i can watch her play... and today i felt sick... really sick...(that's why i ate bread..) played too much games i guess.. i need to rest more.. ALOT more.. tonight needa help aaron reformat... as promised.. i will... but wake me up first if i'm sleeping...

News of the week?

GAME FEST! the longest lan party at MMU Cyberjaya.. Breaking the Guinness World Book of Records.. 40 hours Gaming non-stop... representing our class.. Khesvin, Aaron, SiFu(Yong Chin), Thiam Soon... and Tommy from PT04... 

they managed.. and well.. congratulations guys! you're the record breaker AND holder... but dont be too drama about it... enthusiastic is ok but not over-do it ok lol... grats grats...

Of course.. this explains why Sifu's not around the weekend... i mentioned earlier...

Secondly.. Drama Fest..(another fest -.-)

i'm the commitee.. i should have free entrance.. teacher said promise to give us a ticket.. but? no... it's not ticket.. it's just free entrance... ok it sound the same but you should have tell me earlier... zzz the two nights were great i heard... i didn't go of course... well.. next time perhaps...

Rage-off...

LOL BAPS.... Malliga and i were talking... and mentioned about baps... well... even she knows.. even she agrees with me that he has the attitude problem... i told her.. when ONE could never get himself into a society... it should be his problem.. not the communities'.. agree?? She even say he's too bossy... nah.. normal la... not man enough wana act man... XXY dah la... attitude dont like this la... nmcb... and guess what he ALWAYS skip class... keeping a low profile of course so that he can do that... then ask Malliga to sign for him.. wtf.. malliga you're so stupid! she aint eager at all... and of course.. once he's attached the more he skipped class... faggot is faggot... malliga even said.. that's why she likes what i do... i always cancel his name.. when he's not around... proves that he's not in! but that dont help does it.. next time.. imma bring a markerpen and just draw one black line across the whole column of his name... make him drop the subject... I CAN DO IT dont think i'm fucking joking... I WILL means I WILL... i dare.. 

Second... andrew... khes told him to take games from me... dont fucking think i will give you ok.. you've proven me hostile more than friend... so stay away.. or else.. it's full moon.. i'll beat you up if i need to.. and khes good job for not giving him... you're the winrar....

talking bout khesvin... he updated his blog... go to my link-tos and click... you will enjoice.... 

i'm sick... i cant write any longer.. and i'm really worried about  my academic essay... i dont have articles! sigh.. but i need to sleep.. here's my post after so long.. sry if it's a bit EMO...

This is how the title comes in... Lifeless me... lifeless game fest.. lifeless baps.. lifeless adw.. lifeless blog....

This is HeartRoxas Signing Out...

Crest After All Trough

A Friend in need is a Friend indeed...
no doubt... My Friends are really good to me when they know i'm having a hard time.. sometimes even i doubted myself.. and think whether am i a good friend to them or not... may be sometimes i'm really weird or bad towards them... not a good friend i am... but still... they are the ones stood right beside me when i was about to let go... when i was about to give up...

Yesterday... PCD invites me to go eat together... with his Segamat friends... at MMU Corner... I would love to follow... but then i dont really know much about his friends... so i did not.. but hey... he took the effort... he asked... he showed his concern.... it's already heart-warming... thank you...
Just few mins after that... about ten to be precise... Khesvin invites me.... well this is different... i know his housemates and who am i going with are almost all classmates except for Kelvin (Aaron's room mate)... we went to GULF... and i only ordered ROTI Kosong.. because i had already eaten half a loaf of bread... but going there without eating is impossible. and i really wanna try out the middle-eastern mamak stall... it's quite nice....and the movie projected there was the Americas Ninja 3... seriously... an old movie but it was funny... funny in the sense that it's so dam fake.. lol.. we see "bugs" everywhere.. lol we just cant stop laughing and finished the movie before departing home... so well my dinner aint that bad after all yesterday... thank you for the invites you two that i mentioned... much appreciated....

GAME FEST... They are crazy about this thing... yea 38 hours non-stop of gaming... breaking the Guinness World Record.... but last minute itself their only transport (besides bus).. Milton's car... is canceled... because Milton have to go back his hometown... Khesvin was tension... and to my lulz... i asked him to chillax in M-Group.... -.-
And oh (KHESVIN YOU READ THIS I BOLD IT WITH HIGHLIGHTS YOU TOOOOT! lol)
did i mention khesvin, naughty nathiya and ahh Yuen each has their blog created? wakakaka.. congrats and i look forward to you guy's updates...a phrase from me...
dont create because it's a trend.. create because you wanna create one... then you'll write well...
i've linked them... it's at my link-tos...

Night... i helped them on the Maths Question they're suppose to pass up today.. nvm.. helping is cool... i can revise some myself too... and then my gf called....
The call that i've been waiting for... the much better voice... the voice of a convincing "i'm curing soon dont worry" from my girl friend.. i'm relieved... no doubt i am.... in the phone call... she asked me about my schedule tomorrow... innocently i just tell her... may be she just wanna know when can she call me...

HOWEVER

Morning... after that tiring physics.... i went to CLCR3002 for Stats... then i got her call... she was like the tone when she was at home... asking where are you.. i thought she was blur so i just reminded her...
"you remember that venue where you use to have IT Maths beside me and me with stats?" she was calm.. and say... you wanna see me?
STUNNED... she's back?
"look behind will you?"
Turn around and there she stood... beautifully just outside my classmate...
what am i waiting for... rush out to see her... lol... my gang laughed at me -.-
then i was like how come you're back? then she's like surprise lo... wow.. this is a bit different...
then i was like... i'm happy you know that... but i cant hug you here it's school! lol...
i went back into class and then my gang ask me questions... thank you all.. for all the concerns... haha...

oh speaking of not doing that at school.... sigh... IT second couple... SENJANDA... we usually join group when it's wednesday stats.. eeeyer they sit like... it's not in school... shoulder itu macam dah terlalu dekat- eh bukan.. dah touch touch nih... sigh... i dont respect such acts.. sry to say... but i really dont... you suck BIG time...

Speaking about it... for those who do now know.... IT second couple is the "england talkings veli powerfool one" BAPS.... as the boy of course... baps is baps... today a total of two despo kias my gang and i had talk-ed about... of course.. most of it is i started it.. i sing along them... lol....
ONE is baps... rich SO WHAT... may be the money for a transexual surgery? lmfao... again i dont mind about people being baps... it's their gene their XXY chromosome... but their attitude... senjanda... cannot be better a bit...? summore 24/7 stick to girls.. walao... GET A FUCKING LIFE...

second one... lol it's better not to mention names... but his desponess is WELL KNOWN dey.. lol.. Shau Hwa was talking to me.. and said he dont like people write those in the PM... like showing their emo-nesss... showing their desponess... senjanda... so despo... wan play pula... dowan play wan serious... dont have the LOOKS and STYLE and dont even fucking socialize la... senjanda... then emo for what... everytime wan girls girls girls... but? in class like guai guai... dowan talk... dowan mix up... (unless with john, mangga those...) walao eiiii.... beh tahan la... luckily i dont have him inside my contact in msn ah... ah bo beh tahan ah... shau hwa also said.. yayaya he's a good example.. lol... i talk loud loud oni heck care if he's listening... lol... his despo level... >9000 worse than anyone i've met bring despo...

Today IT Maths class.. walao Khesvin they all have to pass up the 10 sets today cause tmr departing for game fest... then ask me help lo.. sure la.. but the questions are killing me.. seriously... it's hard... and i'm not good... i do till brain also hot hot.. summore yesterday not enough sleep... walao headache ady... able to solve 2 questions... then left one really dunno got what rules ady... luckily got Dao Kun the god... solved.. and that's it... they finished their 10 sets... congrats~! ahaha
Then pcd ask yuen go Lim Teh... cause Yuen today seemed a bit tired or sick... the usual big size him wont feel any cold one but today... even i dont feel cold he also cold... whattashit... nvm... hope it isn't some sickness.. back to pcd... then i was like really ah... he say ya la... go lim teh... wan come? i say.. dowan lo.. gf dah balik nih... then he was like.. oh like this la.. gf balik ady dowan us ady la.. lol... yes ah.. chui ah...
ty la... but i really need to sleep early le.. tomorrow got statistics class... replacement... even if i can go that is after my gf slept.... she still needs her rest.. but i need to see her.. hehe..

Lunch...
Teman gf eat at IF... porridge.. and she's unusually happy.... which i'm a lil surprise and of course really happy seeing her like this... met khesvin again.. and they have one more question dunno.. aiyo.. then i cant solve again.. brain isn't working anymore... Juice tak cukup bro.. lol

4:12pm... finally.. i cannot bear... i fell asleep..

Seeing her back as my daily routine still is alot better... having her back... is like someone who found a way out in the lost woods... like the ants that crave for food.. bees that crave for honey... it's like i've been not seeing her for years and was desperately waiting for her... it feels real good... and i think she'll do well... and cure soon.. just a lil cough and sore throat... thanks for all that concern about her...

That's all for now...
This is HeartRoxas Signing Out...

I'm NOT okay

Woke up early for HD test... thanks for pcd for waking me up actually... because he knew that i will not be awake... there we go... unprepared... walking unconfidently... expecting nothing but just a simple quiz.... and yet... it was a test... a test that will be taking up to 20% of our total marks... 

i've gone mad... mad not because i might lose all these marks... at least i'm there.. at least i know how to do some questions.. at least i got the chance to try it... at least i wont get a total 0 out of 20

but my gf.. she did not attend the quiz yesterday... because she was sick... and it's not just some simple fever... this sick has cost me none other than >9000% worry towards her...

i did not feel like this before.. i'd never felt like this before but what happened to me... i nearly gave up.. gave up to almost EVERYTHING and ANYTHING... if not because of good friends beside me (especially PCD - yea i'm not ashame of saying he's the main encourager).. that encourages me and supports me... i would've been dead...not entirely... but at least my spirit would have been gone... i got no MOOD in anything... ANYTHING at all...

It isnt fair really... she doesnt wanna be sick... no one WANTS to be sick.... she wants the 20% as much as anybody wanted.... why... why did lecturer said our mid-term would be our presentation and FEW QuizES will lead us to 20%... why finish it in a 60 MCQ question and make that A quiz taking up 20% it's NOT FAIR!

Seriously may be people thought i'm ok in class... with the same vulgar scolding all arund LOUDLY... with all the lil laughters and stupid acts... but today i'm not me... i'm just not... i've NEVER been this worry towards any individuals.... of course... this is because i love her... but i dont need to be like this really... i'm just.. EMO... but luckily i've got my face covered in class... i know i hate ppl showing emo-ness towards others when they are so i dont show.. but deep inside i cant forget... i cant forget that she's now sick.. lying on her bed... suffering... and i MISSED her so much... so much that even tears flow... sigh~

I'm moving to 13A-08-02 Ixora Apartment this coming June... so i have to sign an agreement that i'll be moving... and terms and conditions still applies... so there i went... to sign.. this afternoon... after lunch... pcd again... followed... thank you... really... thank you....

You're going to cyber... but that doesnt mean anything far among us friends... we will miss you and so you will miss us too... that at least... i can assure you... 

Dinner wasnt cool at all... i usually eat with my gf.. and my housemates would have expecting me to eat with her.. i'm not sure if i told them she's ady home... but they just wont expect me to follow them for dinner... besides.. they're quite busy themselves... i'm the one should be automatic and ask if there's a dinner slot for me... but i did not.. i talked to her on the phone... she's suffering... i am... too... but i didnt mean to compare... she's sick.. she sufffers alot more than i am... i'm just emo.. and just missing her too much... and over-worried... 

Giving up is an excuse... an excuse that i thought giving up is easy but actually it does not solve a thing... 

I can be stubborn. dont eat. dont sleep. 

But my stomach will still betray me.. and i dont wanna get gastric so there i go... down to U-center and bought bread for my dinner... i did wanted to ask my coursemates... if i can join.. i know(altho not sure) that i'm always welcomed.. i know my character and i know i can fit in.. may be i'm weird in some ways but i do socialise well enough to have someone with me for dinner... i was about to ask M Group.. but then i have a thought over... everyone's eating with their housemates and i'm not even close to know or familiar with them... i wont join... and never will i eat alone too.. and i'm not in the mood to da bao... because i think me... too... has a lil near pre-fever stage... so my dinner... 4 slices of bread...

Khesvin setup his new blog... (link's down there) and were tension about his assignment to be passed up for IT maths... he ask whether i can teach.. so why not... at least i can try my best...

but i know i didn't teach well... i was playing Bully... and teach a bit..(this... i'm sorry khesvin..)

Then my gf called...half way when i was teaching... again... i couldnt help holding my tears back... talked quite a while.... and i'm sry i really cant do anything for her... i really hope i was there to take care of her.. to hug her when she needs me... to watch her sleep in my cuddle... but i'm not... i cant.... i failed...

at last... Khesvin went back without borrowing my head-phone which he said he wanted to... well next time then....

It's late but i dont think i can sleep in this condition... Articles to be passed up tomorrow... and i dont see tomorrow will be any brighter than today.. i'm being pessimistic may be... but i really cant be optimistic at the situation i'm facing now... i'm ruined... i'm doomed... i'm dead... i'm demotivated... i've no confidence over any thing no more... all i wanted is her healthiness... and that i can see her... together developing our just-getting-better relationship... 

It's late... Linkin Park's Given Up meant so much to me... but i dont wanna give up... Next Song taught me so... "Take everything from the inside.. and throw it all away..." From The Inside...

I'm sorry if anyone feels ruined by my Emofied post of mine here.... but i have to express it somewhere... and thank you for those who listens.... 

This is HeartRoxas... Good Night~

"Worry"

This pathetic word just wouldnt leave me alone...

I'm worried about my assignments;

I'm worrying about my academic essay;

Worse of all, worrying about my gf...

Assignment today was well... i borrowed from FongE and never think of anything... just copy... i'm tired... really tired... dont wanna think dont wanna do anything... PURE copy... but i cant copy the instance i got the paper... i have to attend english class... 

sigh... cover design for drama fest.. i haven done any.... and i got no idea... and got my computer just reformatted and not fully recovered yet.... i cant do... i'll let Shahril do this time... i quit.... 

I worried that i cant finish copying... but worse of all... my sick gf has to go see doctor... so for sure i'm going with her... but she lost her insurance card and there it goes.... RM34 for some medicine.. sigh...

came back and copy my IT Maths assignment... and rumors spread around about lab sessions avail or not later at 2pm... i'm sick... lecturer himself is not sure of the class and told Jason that there's no class... what a relieve i can slowly copy.. then Yuen called.... dude... got lab... come now...

WTF.... ask pcd... he sleeping... ask M group... Sifu dowan go i tot khesvin also not going.. then i cabut lo...

but what i brought? only IT maths assignment.. not even the lab manual... with long pants and slippers... my Toe... it's still the same... i just cant endure the pain once and for all... may be i really need to go for an operation.... 

so i finished copyin everything in an hour and 15 mins.. including lab... which i done it in a piece of paper instead.. I'M FUCKING TIRED

But what's waiting? Academic essay outline... i.... i just cant find any... i'm dead i think... Drug Abuse... so hard to find article meh?!!! 

come back wanna relax A BIT.. wanna play games... finish my dark sector... but my heart aint into gaming at all.... she's sick... 38 degree celcius... and today it's ady dropped one.. so meaning yesterday it was higher... sigh.. she's badly sicked... i just cant stop worrying... and finally she decided to go home.... where she can have better rest... having her mother taking care of her and also known doctor's treatment...  not seeing her is fine... but she must recover at all cost... i cannot kept myself worrying like this for long... i got no MOOD... no appetite... nothing....

Today dunno what the fuck happen to Ixora line... nmcb... like slower than any living snail in this world... sigh... pcd jio me for terlalu cepat & terlalu ganas (too fast too furious) tonight but i'm not in the mood so i didn't follow... thanks for the invitation anyway... really thank you...

sigh... i only pray for her healthiness now... and Aaron 39 degree also suspected dengue... hope you cure real soon too.... 

i've got no mood in anything but designs... i still have my inspiration... so here it is... my latest desktop.... of course... the icons are clickable....

want bigger pics then.... 

http://i92.photobucket.com/albums/l22/Godmode03/MacXP3.png

Comments, complments, critisises are all welcomed.... but if you'd ask me.... i'm happy with my desktop right now... 

let this post be emofied and a big SIGH~~ as the end shall we....

This is HeartRoxas Signing Out...

Post-Exam Lyfe

yeap, Wednesday night IT students are done with their Last mid-term, a.k.a Physics 2

Electronics are just... "easy" phew... 

we teach each other in test... SJ and me... lol... he taught me something correct i think... but i taught him something wrong OMFG.... sry ya sj i didn't mean it T.T i also wrong liao T.T

but anyway i like Mr Thum Ann... he was stationed to look after us for physics... and guess what... he's with his teaching style... stand and look a bit... then sit down...dont care a thing... raising his head once a while... just try to catch a glimpse... but actually ignoring anything not obvious happening... lol

so what's after exam... PAK TOH!!! GAME!!! (and ASSIGNMENT!!! T.T ah fuck it.. :P)

let's see what game i have in my computer now.... hmmm

• Devil May Cry 4
  
• Gears of War
  
• Assassin Creed
  
• Dark Sector
  
• F.E.A.R. 2
  
• Neverwinter Nights 2
  
• Left 4 Dead
  
• Burnout Paradise
  
• Race Driver GRID
  
• World of Goo? :P
  

ok that's a few ONLY =x anyway thanks for shau hwa and khes for the games...

Well that what actually kept me busy and that's why i did not update my blog... it's been few days already and i promised to post one today... haha...

But the games... keep crashing la... i doubt my driver's problem... not hardware... then i update my driver to latest one.. so far so good....

Gears of war and burnout paradise is the one keep crashing...

then it was Dark Sector... sigh... i tot it keep crashing.. but then i didn't realise it was my trainer that kept it crashing... and yea it has good anti-hack system.. but at last i still able to play with trainer... with coding enable cheat inside haha.... and now this is what kept me busy all the while.. throwing a boomerang at enemies that was 24/7 attached to your hand as long as you dont use a gun.. wow... lol another Sci-Fi infection related OMFG Game... 

Wednesday night was perfect... my gf can teman... then i got lots of games.... thursday night however.. cos tortured my gf till 1am+ mid-night.... wtf?! ok i wont say a thing because it's forbidded but that doesnt mean i'm not freaking angry at cos... 

suppressing my anger was easy with again... GAMES and music....

yea if you'd ask.. i've been gaming only since after exam and nothing else...

Finally i've decided to reformat my computer once and for all... and it should be the last reformat... because i bought my new HDD and suppose to install my OS into it.. but still stick to the old one first till friday... 

now this is my first time installing OS into a new hdd so i'm not familiar... i got alot trouble installing it... it's not my master aka SATA port 1 so i cant install my OS into it for some reason... i swaped with my old hdd port then it's functioning... HOWEVER?!

i really got no experience in this and i got my OS installed as D instead of C and my boot partition is not my system partition.. instead my data partition became my system partition and nothing can be done.. T.T what now... but still i can use so ah who cares... just use lo... till something make me reformat again... (which i hope never will happen in at least half a year ty... :D)

Firday... passing up HD and Acedemic Essay outline was Fun.. especially when you see those last minute rush-ers... (MMU's Culture with the slogan "No Last Minute No Work!") And that's what got my gf pissed off at.. hmmm 1 stupid fellow la i dont wanna elaborate... hear also dulan... lol

Saturday was cool.. i went to Jusco Nando's for the first time and the food was NICE... but not filling enough actually... i finished it like ten mins or so... ah... not satisfy!!

i ordered Hot chocolate.. and its taste was superb too!

Pictars...

Naughty Nathiya said my blog was cool.. thanks for the compliment haha...

oh yea did i mention i'm MOVING! this Following this June intake, i'm moving to.... ok still Ixora la... may be 13A floor.. not confirmed yet but 100% Move.. haha dont freaking ask me questions... =x

Sunday was a bit weird... Have to pass up assignment tomorrow i still lepak lepak like that... tak de rasa bro... went out with gf.. she need a formal shirt PLAIN PURE 100% BLACK for that night's performance.. woots.. so hard to find one... MP, then DP.. Bought at VOIR... walao... like very rich hor... what to do.. for that COS... -.- nvm lo... next time presentation still can wear what... look at Mr. Brightside.. =x

Oh did i mention Burger King was great for Lunch... but...

It rained when we're going home.. and she's Sick... REALLY SICK... and i just finished a phone call with her... she had high fever... sigh..  hope she cure fast... phew... 

Lastly... Linkin Park Rox!!!!

who say?

ME and....

Our beloved Danker. A. C. (Alright we're practicing APA now right... lol)

who just went to our Malaysia Sepang Circuit F1 this weekend... we've read something about his experience and...

COOL STORY BRO!

OK i'm off.. to EMO... worrying bout her sickness... not feeling to eat at all... and go throw some Blade Boomerang over stupid infected fags.... weeeee~~

Thanks You (BAPS style english lol)

for my beloved blog followers... you guys rock... altho my blog doesnt... i'll improvise... 

And to those who often read Virtual Creativity... you guys are my motivators.. 

This is HeartRoxas 

kthxbye...